all of it

I’m sitting here so fatigued with my own line of questioning. The screen goes to sleep way too fast. I’m going to make myself late. How can I send something to those people when I can’t trust my own words to say what I mean? How can I mean what I say when I can’t say what I mean?

Maybe I’m too mean. Maybe that’s why.

Pieces are falling out of me and soon I am going to crumble and I’m already so tired of writing checks to stay alive. I’m running out of time.